Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Mama Loaring

10 Years have passed since James lost his mom.  I met him just before year two.  I have seen and felt the shifts he’s gone through since then, and it’s comforting to know that such a sad time can turn into a learning experience and guidance for life’s journey.

I will never forget some of the initial things that happened after first meeting James, becoming aware of how close he was to his mom and how much love he felt for her - It didn’t take much longer than a few minutes upon entering the cottage for the very first time, for me to feel a loving presence and connection to someone like no other.

Shortly after James and I first met, he asked me when my birthday was.  When I told him February 20, his reaction was interesting.  The look on his face was something I’ll never forget.  He didn’t say anything, at that time, other than, oh wow.  I didn’t ask about his reaction because I thought he was just surprised that it was coming up soon (he asked me in January).  On my birthday the following month, he told me that I share the same birth date as his mom.  I was shocked and so pleasantly surprised – like a ball of energy went right through my body – the same feeling you get when you are so excited about something.  I then realized why James had given me that look the month prior.

After realizing that Elena and I had a bit more of a connection that I had thought, she started to show herself in different ways to me.  She would constantly be popping into my dreams, showing me things and taking me places.  Since I was feeling such a close connection to this person I had never met, I was always wishing I was able to see her face and hear her voice.  Although she would never talk to me in my dreams, she would show me very clearly her face.

The first Christmas James and I celebrated together, I surprised him with a video collage I put together of pictures I had found in the basement of the cottage.  When I was getting ready to show James his Christmas surprise, and waiting patiently on the couch, I had an overwhelming smell of perfume that would not go away.  I was looking to see if I had a plant close to me, or an air freshener somewhere, but there was nothing – It was Elena sitting beside me, joining us for the video.  Months later, Char mentioned that her mom used to wear Chanel No.5 – the perfume I smelt that evening on the couch!

She also pops in at very unexpected times.  Early in our relationship, James and I had had a disagreement about something and he had gone to bed early.  We were at the cottage, I was upset and was drifting off to sleep on the couch when suddenly the TV not only turned on, but the volume was on full blast, and the lights starts flickering.  LOL  Needless to say, it startled me!  I took it as a sign that I was not supposed to fall asleep on the couch upset with James, but was to go in and talk to him.  “Never go to bed angry!” I will always be thankful to Elena for times like that when I feel a little nudge to do something I may not have done otherwise.

I’ve been recently connecting more with my interest in spirit, energy, mediums - whatever you want to call it.  I’ve started reading a few books, learning more and it sparked my interest back to Reiki (a healing technique based on the ability to channel energy to help someone heal either emotionally and/or physically).  I had taken my Reiki level I course in 2008 – I became pregnant at the time, got married, moved, and got pregnant again.  While growing our little family, I let that side of me rest for a while.  I have felt more and more urges recently to to get back into it.  I was contemplating for the past couple of months whether I was ready to sign up for my Reiki II course – One big push was this Christmas – I asked for a sign, from anyone in the spirit world; a sign that I wouldn’t be able to miss, that would let me know I was ready to go further with my learning.  I think Elena not only wanted to make the sign very clear, but she also wanted to validate quite clearly that it was her who was giving it!…...  When James was standing beside the Christmas tree at the cottage looking out the window, two ornaments not just fell, but flew off the tree.  These ornaments were Elena’s.  Prior to this incident, we had told the girls they were allowed to take one ornament each home with us (needless to say, we took these two flying ornaments home with us).  Any doubts that I was harbouring regarding anything spirit-wise, vanished at that moment.  I completed my Reiki level II this past weekend Smile

These are only a few special moments I have that I believe are loving connections to a person I will always love, always miss, always wish I could have met, could have hugged and could thank for bringing me to the love of my life, the father of my children and spark that keeps my life always exciting ♥

Love You Mama Elena!


This is the video I put together for James and his family on our first Christmas together.

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Catch Up!

Wow.. what a couple of weeks this has been!  Annika’s stomach bug ended up getting Selena and Mommy Sad smile  The first time I’ve had the stomach flu since elementary school… ended up having to face my fear and disgust of throwing up, and suffered through it for 24 hours, with Selena suffering right by my side…. We all feel much better and back to ourselves now (thank Goodness!).  So, we’re all cleansed with super immunity now!!

As promised, I put together the photos and video my parents took on New Year’s Eve with the girls.  My parents moved to the clock forward to midnight at 9pm for the girls so they could participate in my dad’s traditions – they loved it!

Monday, January 6, 2014

Just a typical, epic day of parenting…

I’m sure that every mommy around the world will very much be able to empathize with my day yesterday.  For future laughs, I’ve decided to jot it down… I’m sure I’ll be able to laugh at this in 15+ years’ time.  As for right now….all I need is sleep…

Waking up to what I thought was going to be a normal Sunday here at BJAMS’ …the regular wakeup call from Annika “Hi mom.”  But… this time, 20 seconds after the wake-up, Annie comes running over with her hand over her mouth whining.  With mommy instinct immediately kicking in, like a lightening bolt, I shot out of bed knowing what was about to happen; making it within one step of the toilet, our bathroom sink and cupboards were drenched…  I still had hopes that it was just a fluke.   Getting by the first half an hour without another episode is usually our safe ground.  Watching the clock, and fingers crossed, I was hoping that we would get by that marker… but then, BOOM… another for the poor little girl… and then another half an hour, like clockwork; until finally two and a half hours later her stomach had settled, and I was pretty confident that we were finally over the horrid part of the stomach flu.

Poor Annie could barely move.  She was curled up on Nana in the Sun’s wool rug at the foot of our bed, with her little sister never more than two feet from her (as much as I wanted to keep Selena as far away as possible, she refused to move and would do nothing other than say “poor Annika” or “I’ll find you some toys Annika.” The only time Selena left Annika’s side was to search the house for “Annika’s toys” or “Annika’s crafts” and she had a little pile of toys beside Annika on the floor.

Mommy needed a little fresh air, so outside with Mavie in the two feet of snow to do his business, and then shovel the snow and ice before the next snow storm was ready to come later in the afternoon.

Now, straight into crazy mommy/OCD cleaning at this first sign of Annika’s stomach calming down.  6 loads of laundry down, half a bottle of disinfectant gone, and two rolls of paper towel in the garbage, dinnertime was here and Annika was finally asking for a little to drink and eat.  Feeling relieved that our house was 98.5% clean of this bug, and Annika was starting to feel better, I decided to make her some Gatorade and gave her some apple sauce.  She was still very weak and didn’t want to move, but she held it all down and was doing okay, and I felt relieved that she wasn’t dehydrated.

Little did I know what was in store for the next couple of hours… 1.  Selena spilled her chicken soap all over the couch.  2.  James shattered a full glass of coke all over the kitchen floor.  3.  Six piles of perfectly folded, clean clothing destroyed by Selena.  4.  Annika projectile vomited all over her bed at 8pm (right after I had cleaned, changed and disinfected the bedding).  5.  Annika dry heaved at 10:30 p.m.  6.  11:00 p.m. flop into bed with my sinus infection giving me what was close to a migraine.

So there you have it!  I made it out alive…fingers crossed that another day like this doesn’t happen in a very long time (or ever).  This was truly one of those Oscar-worthy parenting days (I have a terrible phobia of vomit/vomiting….)

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Happy New Year!

We brought the New Year in with a bang!  A jazz feel to start at Manhattans Pizza with live pianist and delicious pizza and wine!  The Keg for dessert and then to Nichole’s to officially celebrate the countdown with friends and family, hot tub-style!!

The girls celebrated with Nana and Papa this year, and even helped Papa with his New Year’s traditions (I’ll post video soon!)

The New Year has already brought us a sinus infection and stomach flu… so here’s to hoping our immune systems will be boosted for the rest of the year!


Manhattan’s live music


The bar had an aquarium inside the wall!


Celebrating 8 Years together xo (I think this will be a good one – 8 is both mine and James’ favourite number!)